WISH

I miss the times when smiling without fears and pains is the easiest thing for me to do...
Now, it's hard to smile when you know that your heart is wounded by the experience you've got.

I never knew I would still shed tears for you... I thought it has already ended. Now, I wanted to get you out of my system...How would I do that? I don't know!

What I know this very moment is that it feels like I was betrayed and crushed into pieces.

I wish I could go back to the time when I can smile to anybody without feeling this pain... I wish...

from the story: The story of us

MEN!

It's really depressing and disappointing how some (young) men act these days...

I feel like the existence of kind and thoughtful guys in the Philippines are becoming lesser.

I was on my way home the other night, around 11:30 I think. Because it was too late, there were few jeepneys and a lot of people waiting on the jeepney stops and streets to ride and go back home as soon as possible.

When our jeepney stopped in one of the stops, lots of passengers pushed their way inside the jeepney to make a space for theirselves so they could go back home. When all the seats were taken, a woman still entered the jeepney which made it very crowded. She preferred to stand near the entrance of the jeepney and she held tightly to the bars. She said she'll do it so she can just go home. Men inside the jeepney just stared at her. Take note: women don't do this in Philippines especially in jeepneys, men usually does this since they can help their selves.

Men inside the jeepney just stared at her! Before the driver drove and moved away, an old man offered his seat. The woman doesn't want to take it since he's too old to do that but the old man insisted.

I feel really bad about this because in the old times, men would usually give way for women. They pay more attention to women.

I'm not generalizing all men since I still know some men who are really gentleman, kind and thoughtful to women and even to older people... and I'm sure that whoever reads this would agree that some men chose to help others but some would prefer that they didn't hear anything or that they didn't see anything.

Take a look of this picture below of a full jeepney. This is an example of what men do.

This picture is from: www.filgifts.com/ffp/jeepney.asp

What's your opinion about this?
What about your country?


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My time with you...

This song really makes me happy in times I feel blue... Listen to it and enjoy! ^_^



My time with you - David Choi and Kina Grannis

OUCH!

It's hard!
Don't know what to do!
It's tearing me up!
I can't look at him...
because I know that what I will see is his happiness.

I know I should be happy for him..
but it hurts a lot!

I can't take it!
I want to move on!

How does moving on becomes easy?

Why could he move on so easily?

.........................help!............................
may day! may day! may day!

April 3 emotions

On this day, my emotions are mixed.

I am happy that my best friend is celebrating her birthday today. I'm truly glad for her about her accomplishments and status in life..

However, there's a big part of me that grieves, aches, and cries. Today is also the death anniversary of my dear sister. It hurts me everytime I think of her. I miss her. No matter how I make myself positive and happy today, her memories draws me to tears. I truly miss her. I really do.

If she's still here, I would have been much happier for this day. But she's not and it aches more.

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Thanks Bro!

2009 was indeed a great year for me. I received too much blessings that I am really happy and thankful for. I really thank the Divine Providence for this.

Before 2009 ended, I took an examination. It’s called Civil Service Exam. If a person passed this examination, he or she has the opportunity to get a better job or be recognized by the company to have a better position in the company or have a salary raise.

And I’m so glad to announce, I passed the exam! I’m very happy.^_^

Looking back at the examination day, I was so nervous because the examination was quite hard for me. The things I have studied many days before the exam were quite far! From that time, I prayed and I hoped a miracle would happen. I was hoping that God wouldn’t forbid the desire of my heart --- to pass this tough exam.

My result may not be as high as what my eldest sister had ---- she was the topnotcher ---- but I’m still glad that I made it. This is so overwhelming! Thanks BRO!

I was so nervous when I was opening the website of Civil Service.

This was the news in their website...

For more readings about the news:

go to http://www.csc.gov.ph/cscweb/cscweb.html

have a great day everyone!

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For my family...

Today I have hurt my family…this would be the last time I will be hurting them. I don’t want them to suffer or experience a difficult time. It might be tiring for my part sometimes but I realize that no matter how tiring it is, still they are important to me--- more important than any other people in the world! I can’t bear to see them at loss and in anguish because of some things I have done and have never done.

I know what’s right and what’s right for me at this time is their happiness, no matter how tiring it may be. I love them and I will always be there for them. Sacrificing things for them should not be difficult or hard for me. They are my family and I love them.

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